Missing

To miss: "to notice the absence of...." a lot of things which used to be but are not anymore even if you'd want things to be the way they where before.

Trick question

There comes a time when you're so busy you almost forget yourself behind along the way.
Than there comes a time when you find yourself and you don't know what where you looking for.

The question is: Is it because you always there ? or because it felt better when you wasn't ?

Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Oh whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Michael J. Fox

A volte il passato fa` un ritorno al futuro, e al futuro sta cazzata non piace !!

There's nothing like a beer with the boys

Living the dream sometimes is tiring..  lack of sleep and a hectic day, are the starter and main course of every day in the past month I guess. Out and about all day without having the time to eat at home or meet up with some friends. Tutto ad un tratto non c'e' la fai piu` la fatica e i pensieri ti fanno crolare tanto che non ti reisce benne nemmeno comunicare in una sola lingua..

Cosi' si accende una lampadina proprio come nei cartoni animati, brillante idea.. oggi mi prendo il giorno per me, e` anche se la maggioranza della gente crede che ti dovresti impegnare in altre cazzate, te ne infischi chiami gli amici e te ne vai a scolarti una bottiglia di birra giacciata..

Back home after an hour.. back to the same hassle and strange looking people occasionally also called family members. However you still feel refreshed and like you had the best holiday you can afford so I can confirm that.. There's nothing like a beer with the boys !! thanks mates.

Same old story

Change of season.. yeah all I see is summer, all I want to think about is summer and what it might bring with it, even if I know that most probably it won't be even similar to how I'm imagining it's gonna be.

However since not even the weather has settled down sometimes, just like the weather i get some grey clouds. Confusion seems to be the destination to where my thoughts and plans lead.. On one hand i look at my self and say fuck I haven't changed at all in these past years..but maybe I should say thank god I didn't..

I hope that blue skies and 30 degrees Celsius decide to start keeping me company very soon  so at least I could blame my madness on the season.

I'll take it day by day

Not the first time we say it or hear it. Ever thought what this really means ? How do you take things day by day?
Well might sound strange but sometimes I get to think about everyday stuff that seems obvious and try to get a sort of meaning out of them..

Could 'take it day by day' mean I don't want to think about it?, I don't wanna plan ahead? or I don't wanna think about the consequences? maybe it means i'm scared ? or maybe I don't give a shit?

Than I say well isn't this 'take it day by day' a way of planning ahead? And if you actually mange to do so and don't think about the consequences, won't you still have to face them at some point ? And if you're scared hell yeah welcome to the world buddy everyone gets scared at some point and its even good to be scared at times !! Oh you don't give a shit, you're the heartless one so why don't you just quit instead if you really don't care ?

So is this taking it day by day just a convenient escape route to run from emotions without having to feel guilty? Which is still sort of ironic, since you cannot decide what to feel else it wouldn't be a feeling but a decision... Well i'm gonna postpone this issue and take it day by day we'll see next time..

Who's talking about books anyway?

Isn't it ironic how some times a 100 page book seems never ending...while other times you'd extend a 2 page article to 1000 pages if you could..

La Notte

Nel senso astronomico del termine, la notte, che si alterna al dì, è parte del giorno. Si tratta dell'intervallo di tempo compreso tra il tramonto e l'alba, in cui il Sole rimane al di sotto dell'orizzonte ed in cui, in genere, gli esseri viventi riposano in una fase chiamata sonno.

Per me la notte rapresenta la verita`. E` il periodo del giorno dove uno si ritrova da solo e` puo veramente vedere cio che ha, e piu` imporante ritrovare se stesso. Si puo passare un intera giornata a pensare pero` non sifugge mai alla cruda realta` della note.

La notte cosi` mi serve da freno, facendomi realizzare che anche se mi sento un eroe per tutta la giornata non posso negare che mi manca un senso della vita che non esiste piu` , mi mancano insignificanti cose che in realta` significano molto... mi manchi tu. Cosi` mentre la gente riposa nel sonno io mi rialzo e ricomincio a camminare raccogliendo i pensieri e le emozioni che mi rimboccano le coperte mentre faccio del mio megio per svegliarmi il giorno seguente da eroe finche la notte non ritorna e mi rinfaccia di nuovo la verita`.

Food for thought

Stop and think...

It's not about the money you have but what you can make out of it.

It's not about love but about what you're ready to do for it.

It's not about success but about the happiness it may brings.

It's not about who you were in the past but who you are now.

It's not how people see you but how you see yourself.

It's not about the smile you draw on your face but about the hidden feeling behind it.

It's not about how strong you are but how easily you get hurt.

It's not about falling down but about how you get up.

It's not who you are but what you do that defines you.

...usually there's more to life than meets the eye.